Through The Gehenna ['16 Deluxe Edition]

by Catherine Corelli

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This is an edition of an earlier '10 original Through The Gehenna release that includes bonus material

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released April 26, 2016

music, lyrics, vocals, producing, artwork by Cat Alice Corelli (Catherine Corelli)

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Catherine Corelli New York, New York

Catherine Alice Corelli (aka Cat Corelli) (born August 8th, 1987) is an American musician, singer songwriter and composer best known for her work on the self-titled Corelli project and not as much for I Alice which has been a relatively recent and new beginning. ... more

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Track Name: Soarcry
You said… I am too special to you
You said it like I was a kinda model that wouldn’t fit
you,
And now you really dunno what to do…
Me too…
You said I’m pretty and cute,
But yet I feel that I don’t ever suit
You well enough…
You’re afraid and unaware of what you’re facing…
You never thought you might
(what a fright)
and now you don’t think you’re able to
‘cause I’m amazing…

To me it’s a kinda plague,
It feels like I dream,
But all of a sudden I know I’m awake…
It hurts, it burns, and it turns me upside down,
And then my heart unfurls
As I cry with no sound.
I still control my shakes
But every minute it takes
Is a torture to me…
You talk but every time you speak
I gotta feeling you lie to me,
So my heart gets bleak
Every time… every time…

I’d buried myself inside
And faced everything with eyes open wide,
Yet it took too much to reach the balance.
I tried
Though too f**ked up with lie,
Though conditioned to die
I got better in my head
And much more cynical in bed.
I’ve lost all my believes and choked all my dreams
‘cause in truth nothing is really what it seems.
I belied myself so that I could hold on
Now take a one good look at what you’ve done to me!
Come on!

Now I can fly… like I’m a soar cry,
You made me feel this way…
Now I can fly… like I’m a soar cry,
Sometimes you kill me, but I can’t die…
Now I can fly… like I’m a soar cry,
You made me feel this way…
Now I can fly… like I’m a soar cry,
Sometimes you kill me, but I can’t die…

Now I’ve gotta fly… like I’m a soar cry,
You made me feel this way…
Now I’ve gotta fly… like I’m a soar cry,
Sometimes you kill me, but I can’t die…
Now I’ve gotta fly… like I’m a soar cry,
You made me feel this way…
Now I’ve gotta fly… like I’m a soar cry,
Sometimes you kill me, but you know I can’t die…

You never met anyone like me,
There’s no wonder you didn’t ‘cause I’m the one
eternally
You dunno what to expect,
You dunno what you could get
If only you wanted to…
You’re afraid to know whom you met.
God gave me you, god gave you me,
But you’re a human so you can’t take it easily,
And I’m unsure of what I might be:
An angel for you, a temptation, but anyway not a human
being…

Do you wanna take my life?
I just wanna know what for I strive…
For you, for me, for us, for god’s sake?
You taste and smell like my destiny and it makes my
heart ache.
You ask me why I’m here by your side,
Why I confide…
But anyhow I can’t explain…
The one and only thing I know it is all right…
It’s all right… right as the moon and stars above so
bright…

(now listen)

But you don’t believe me,
You’re afraid to believe me.
If you’re so scared why don’t you just leave me?
It’s all because you know I’m your only chance…
Nobody wants another failed romance.
But there’ll be none at all
If we’ll be deaf to the call
Of something deep inside us, aware of a fall
We often give up. We give up… that’s why
We stay alone and hear the bitter soar cry…

You said… I am too special to you
And now you really dunno what to do…
Me too…
Now you made me fly like I’m a soarcry.
Don’t let me die away like I’m a soarcry.
Now take a one good look at what you’ve done to me
And what I’ve done to you.
Or maybe that’s what should happen to me
And to you…
We’re given to each other,
So we deserve each other.
Track Name: Dark Singer
dark… dark… dark… dark singer

i enter the dark, and it covers me,
i walk in the dark, and it shelters me,
i talk to the dark with sincerity,
i sing in the dark, and then i can see
the devious destiny, the strong and the weak,
the gloaming struggle of heat, the dying pulse of the
bleak.
i trace every soul in the dark,
i can read every soul when i sing in the dark.

i lie in the dark, and it’s soothing to me,
i crawl in the dark, and it’s stripping me,
i glow in the dark and moan lustfully,
i sin in the dark, and then i can be
the devious destiny for the strong and the weak,
the gloaming quiver of heat, a l*sty pulse for a
lick…
i can attract every man, ’cause i’m dark,
i can get every soul when i sing in the dark…

dark… dark… dark… dark singer

i smile in the dark, and it echoes to me,
i wade through the dark, and it sings with me,
i play with the dark, and it strengthens me,
i melt with the dark, and then i can see
the darkness is palpable and audible too,
like me, like anything else, like every song that i
do…
i can scent, i can touch, i can hear, i can know
what’s above, what is here, what’s below.

i purr in the dark, and it breaths on me,
i live in the dark, and it flows in me,
i crave in the dark, and it squirts on me,
i f*ck in the dark, and then i can be
the queen of the living, the momentum, the drive,
the flying whack, the impulsion, the very meaning of
life…
i’ve got the power to give love and take it,
i’ve got the talent to enslave when the dark makes me
naked.

i lie in the dark, and it’s soothing to me,
i crawl in the dark, and it’s stripping me,
i glow in the dark and moan lustfully,
i sin in the dark, and then i can be
the devious destiny for the strong and the weak,
the gloaming quiver of heat, a l*sty pulse for a
lick…
i can attract every man, ’cause i’m dark,
i can get every soul when i sing in the dark…

dark… dark… dark… dark singer…
Track Name: Don't Ask
common… now listen.

on a night that was expected to be cray cray
you skilfully lenzed me, supermanned me ’cause you
think that i’ve gone astray
look at me mister, look at me hot kitten here,
them kittens’ noses burn… them growing firm.
yet you’re amazed at da fact that i look so stern…
cut off your gag, cut out your bla bla bla
‘cuz i’ll give you kick in the nuts, i swear i’ve gone
nuts.
that’s what i dots.
i’m too tired’n’sick, your blasphemy reels me…
snap! shut up! ‘cuz your cruelty kills me…

i feel bothered, (and fuckin’ miniscule)
scorned and taunted. (and so ridicule)
now you’re sorry (’bout what you’ve done to me)
but don’t ask… don’t worry. (‘cuz it’s no good to me)

in a way you’re a dom, but when we don’t play
don’t make me believe that you’re incredibly dumb
and numb…
in a way i’m a sub, but if it’s no game
don’t blow me off when i sobb,
don’t mock me when i’m blown up.
i’d like to laugh my head off,
i’d like to be dead drunk enough
to keep away all of this stuff.
but i know there’s no comfort in wine…
i’m too sober and sublime,
so i don’t try cuz i know i’ll be just

wasting time.
it’s odd! now i feel i’ve got
used to your bends
like they’re some kind of amends
for me.
finally
i feel so wrecked, i’m in bits…
and though i’m outta my wits’
this fucking calamity makes me sick and bitter sweet,
i feel bipolar and i wish you could slit
down my eyes to my heart and eat the h*ll i eat
at least a little part, just a bit.
sometimes you make me feel cold and i know you can’t
stop it.
please stop it!

i feel bothered, (and fuckin’ miniscule)
scorned and taunted. (and so ridicule)
now you’re sorry (’bout what you’ve done to me)
but don’t ask… don’t worry. (‘cuz it’s no good to me)
masochistic, (nymphomaniacal)
narcissistic (psychosomatically)
i feel relaxed (i’m wading mentally)
take me… don’t ask (cuz it’s the best for me)

got razor nips, left in the cold,
got cracking lips, but yet i’m bold,
neglected, rejected, i feel so disrespected,
never thought it would come out the way i didn’t
expected.
why so selfish, self-centered and severe?
i bet i grow petrified and get stiffer!
where are we goin’? we’re both calcifying,
fighting, colliding, resisting, defying.
so don’t ask me why i shed bitter tears,
so don’t ask me why i’m embedded in fears,
so don’t ask me why i’m so bothered and dead,
don’t ask me cuz i doubt that you’ll understand.
so don’t ask me why i shed bitter tears,
so don’t ask me why i’m embedded in fears,
so don’t ask me why i’m so bothered and dead,
don’t ask me cuz i doubt that you’ll understand.

i feel bothered, (and fuckin’ miniscule)
scorned and taunted. (and so ridicule)
now you’re sorry (’bout what you’ve done to me)
but don’t ask… don’t worry. (‘cuz it’s no good to me)
masochistic, (nymphomaniacal)
narcissistic (psychosomatically)
i feel relaxed (i’m wading mentally)
take me… don’t ask (cuz it’s the best for me)

don’t waste your time, don’t ask me why…
snap! cut the shit! don’t let me die…
don’t waste your time, don’t ask me why…
snap! cut the shit! don’t let me die…
Track Name: Private
never try to take my life away…

i’ve got my personal wit that i can lose if i want to,
i can make it complete or divide it by two.
my personal shit will occur if i do –
not your business, just my problem that is private too.
i’ve got my personal name, personal shame,
personal pain, personal blame,
gimme back my private skin, private grin,
a wanna sin if i wish and i wanna sing.

one day i’ll overcome all the shit,
i’ll rule my personal demons and lay them down to my
feet.
one day i’ll conquer every desire:
this is my privacy, so i’ll destroy them till they
expire.
one day i’ll finish all my decay,
one day (sounds unreal, like 32nd of may!),
one day i’ll be happy, one day i’ll be free,
and that day will be mine, my privacy.

i’m not going to wait for you,
though it looks like doing something that i shouldn’t
do.
there are plenty of things that’ll never be done:
if the moon remains forever, there’ll be no place for
the sun.

stay where you are,
your death comes from afar.
your own extinction
is your shadow and bride,
it’s your day and your night.

i’ve got my personal shape and my personal form,
i’ve got my private temperature, well i’m just warm,
i’ve got my private heart and my private veins,
my private blood brings oxygen to my private brains.
my ways may be wicked, and cruel they seem,
i walk my crooked mile to where i’ve never been.
my roads are few, but everyone is mine,
they run away the faster the more i run out of time.

one day i’ll overwhelm all the shit,
i’ll fight my personal demons and throw them down to my
feet.
one day i’ll control body and mind:
them both will serve me mixed and intertwined.
one day i’ll end up all my decay,
one day (looks odd, like 69th of may!),
one day i’ll be happy and i’ll sing a song
that day will be mine, cuz i’ll be gone.

i’m not going to wait for you,
though it sounds like doing something that i mustn’t
do.
there are so many things that’ll never be done:
if the moon remains forever, there’ll be no time for
the sun.

stay where you can
till all your roads are gone.
the last one will take you
from your miserable stand
to your personal end.

i’ve got my personal privacy.
(haven’t you got one? haven’t you got it, haven’t you
got it too?)
i’ve got my private personality.
(never had it yet? you must have had it, you must have
had it too.)
i’ve got my personal privacy.
(haven’t you got one? haven’t you got it, haven’t you
got it too?)
i’ve got my private personality.
(never had it yet? you must have had it, you must have
had it too.)

i don’t walk someone’s way,
i don’t want someone’s fate,
i don’t need someone’s life,
and i won’t let someone take mine.

i’m not going to wait for you,
though it seems to be something that i mustn’t do.
there are so many things that’ll never be done:
if i’ll remain forever, i’ll have no time to be gone.

stay where you are,
(don’t you try to walk my way!)
your death comes from afar.
(i don’t need someone’s life,
and i won’t let someone take mine away from me).
your own extinction
is your shadow and bride,
it’s your day and your night.
stay where you can
(walk your crooked mile to where you’ve never been)
till all your roads are gone.
(i run away the faster the more you run out of time)
the last one will take you
from your miserable stand
to your personal end.

i’m your fate
so never try to take my life away…
i’m your fate
so never try to take my life away…
Track Name: Snow
say what? say what? say what? say what?
you dunno when i’ll fade out and turn into something
blanc,
i dunno when you’ll collapse and become so deadly black

you know when it’s time to wrap me,
you know when it’s time to make me feel like a nowhere
queen,
you know when it’s time to trap me…
i’ll never ever guess when you’ll come again
and spread yourself under my tired feet.

i know when it’s time to touch you,
i know when it’s time to fall into your silent arms,
i dunno the time you’ll come
to mess up again with my bitter tears, with my deepest
fears…
don’t leave me this time…

i’ve overcome my jealousy,
i’ve killed my malevolence today…
the taste so bitter, the feeling sweet
cuz no-one can ever walk my way…

i knew that you’ll come and obey
i knew that you’ll come and be adored by the nowhere
queen,
i know when it’s time to trap you…
you’ll never ever guess, but return again.
i’ll give me to you but you’ll beg for more…

you dunno when i’ll grow shallow,
you dunno when i’ll fade out and turn into something
blanc…
but i’ll try my best to find
out the bitter point when the passion dies, when it
blows our minds…
and then i’ll be gone…

i’ve overcome my jealousy,
i’ve killed my malevolence today…
the taste so bitter, the feeling sweet
cuz no-one can ever walk my way…

the snowflakes will dance around us
just like they did a thousand years
or a billion years ago.
and every time they touch us
infinity will be close at hand
and everything else won't be worth anything…

i’ve overcome my jealousy,
i’ve killed my malevolence today…
the taste so bitter, the feeling sweet
cuz no-one can ever walk my way…

let the snowflakes fall from the heavens
let them glimmer like our every glance,
let them glow like our hearts in their infinite
dance…

say what? (i tell you what)
you dunno when i’ll fade out and turn into something
blanc,
i dunno when you’ll collapse and become so deadly
black.
Track Name: Bitch
so many times… i heard them say i’m the one…
their words were sweeter than honey, but in the end i
stayed alone… ‘cuz
so many times… the hypocritical backstab
made my tongue twitch and follow the psycho dramatical
rap…
so many eyes… tried to penetrate through me,
tried to elaborate through me… they never apologized!
so many lies… took me over again and again
intoxicated me to the highest degree of inner pain…

so many lips… skied all over my skin
like they were trying to win me and push themselves
in…
so many hands… slided down to my butt,
pinched my nips, got ’em up, made me deviously hot.
so many cocks… stiff and one-eyed and blind
pushed and pushed into me hard and deep: they tried and
they tried.
so many c*mshots… i was all spattered with jizz
i felt no love but emptiness, all i could feel went
like this:

i’d like to know it’s nothin’
but a mistake of my own…
someone make me believe
someone make me believe in this…
i’d like to know it’s nothin’
but a mistake of my own…
someone make me believe
someone make me believe cuz i…

just can’t trust in men anymore…
let them call me a slut, let them call me a whore…
i’ve wasted my love and got bullshit instead…
so now i’m a bitch, ‘cuz my heart is dead…

so many times… i checked my heart for some hope,
climbed outta the window but found nothing on the end
of the rope.
i breached the skies… unleashing every scream
like a shot, like a single method that explains what i
mean.
so many eyes… i wonder who’ll be the last?
i’ve gotta feeling, all my future’s buried deep in my
past.
so many lies… and every day there’s a new,
i can be probably wrong, but i am better than you.

cuz i don’t need… a single thing in your world,
i’ve got no reasons to lie or even utter a word.
cuz i don’t want… to be your mistress and god:
your not worth my toes, not worth the fucking sickness
i’ve got.
and i don’t need… your sympathy and respect
i’m tired of trying, and trying, and trying, tryin’ to
forget
your every deed… and everything that you said,
once more i’m tryin’ to find my lost believes before i
am dead.

i’d like to know it’s nothin’
but a mistake of my own…
someone make me believe
someone make me believe in this…
i’d like to know it’s nothin’
but a mistake of my own…
someone make me believe
someone make me believe cuz i…

just can’t trust in men anymore…
let them call me a sl*t, let them call me a whore…
i’ve wasted my love and got bullshit instead…
so now i’m a bitch, ‘cuz my heart is dead…

dead… x4
i’m tired of trying, and trying, tryin’ to forget…
tryin’ to forget… x4

i’d like to know it’s nothin’
but a mistake of my own…
someone make me believe
someone make me believe in this…
i’d like to know it’s nothin’
but a mistake of my own…
someone make me believe
someone make me believe cuz i…

just can’t trust in men anymore…
let them call me a slut, let them call me a whore…
i’ve wasted my love and got bullshit instead…
so now i’m a bitch, ‘cuz my heart is dead…
Track Name: No Love For Tomorrow
go!
wa-wa-wa what i want?
wa-wa-wa what have i got? (today)

there are so… many ways to get a punch in a gut
and several others to cut away the good feelings you
got.
sometimes it throws you down on your knees
and then there’s nothing to calm you, no satisfaction,
no ease.
i tried and i tried to be good,
Assured myself everyday that i could
be better and cleaner than all that i was
after the first time a man took off all of my clothes.

it’s nice to have sex with the one you love,
and it’s cool to be fucked if you think you’re loved.
yet it cuts to the bone when you know you were wrong
and all the motherfuckin’ feelings you felt them alone.
so here i am! all i want is spit it all out!
i want a drink, i want a drug and i wanna shout!
because the pain i feel is growing deeper with every
breath
i dance and drink and get high all night awaiting my
death.

my yesterday’s gone away, and now it’s buried:
it slowly died and it took the best part of me.
so i know i have got no love for tomorrow:
i guess i’ve got nothing more, but hate for today.

there are so… many ways to get tired of life
and several motives to cut away all the memories with a
knife.
sometimes it knocks you down in the mud
and then you’re coward, and you suck, and damn your
god.
i tried and i tried to wash down
the shit off my soul, but it’s always around
it sticks to my skin and it flows through my veins,
it makes me entangled, it holds me in chains.

it’s cool to believe in love when you’re betrayed,
but i wasn’t able to, so my choice is hate.
the more you were open, the more it would hurt
and the deeper your feelings are stamped into dirt.
so here i am! all i want is puke it all out!
i want the music kick me up, i want it be loud!
because the pain i feel is growing deeper with every
breath
i dance and drink and get high all night awaiting my
death.

my yesterday’s gone away, and now it’s buried:
it slowly died and it took the best part of me.
so i know i have got no love for tomorrow:
i guess i’ve got nothing more, but hate for today.
my yesterday’s gone away, and now it’s buried:
it slowly died and it took the best part of me.
so i know i have got no love for tomorrow:
i guess i’ve got nothing more, but hate for today.

you can’t stop me. (stop your suicide!)
i’m gonna break free from life (stop!)
you can’t stop me. (stop your suicide!)
‘cuz i wanna die now (stop!) x2

i tried and tried to be good…
keep on tryin’ and tryin’ and then you will be.
i tried and i tried to believe…
never doubt that he loves you infinitely.

my yesterday’s gone away, and now it’s buried:
it slowly died and it took the worst part of me.
so i know i have got no hate for tomorrow:
i guess i’ve got nothing more, but love for today.
my yesterday’s gone away, and now it’s buried: (wa-wa-
what i want?)
it slowly died and it took the worst part of me. (wa-
wa-what have i got?)
so i know i have got no hate for tommorow: (wa-wa-what
i want?)
i guess i’ve got nothing more, but love for today.

i tried and tried to be good…
i’ll keep on tryin’ and tryin’ and then i will be.
i tried and i tried to believe…
i am sure that he loves me infinitely.
Track Name: 69th Of May
[six-] 69
[-ty] 69
[ninth] 69
[of may] of may x2

[six-] severed…
[-ty] tethered…
[ninth] chaotic…
[of may] psychotic! x2

69th of may! x4

step aside, slip and slide
straight away to suicide.
it isn’t my hate and it’s not my fate,
it’s not my resolution, it’s not my bit rate.
slip aside, step and slide
straight away to suicide.
it’s not my extension, it’s not my format,
i suffer a tension i’ve never had.

[six-] what am i thinking of?
[-ty] what am i bitching at?
[ninth] what am i waiting for?
[of may] i can’t have it anymore…
[six-] feels like i’m sleeping awake.
[-ty] this is a single take.
[ninth] my life is passing me by.
[of may] the hardest thing is that i know why.

i don’t want to, yet i’m forced to
give it all the best of me.
i don’t need it, yet i’ll meet it
on the 69th of may.

severed mind too blind to hide
still escapes a suicide.
your victory would be my defeat,
all of my endings then shall meet.
ascetic bind of a psychotic kind,
confidential suicide.
you’re my killer’s friend and aid,
my enemies lover. i’m betrayed.

[six-] what am i thinking of?
[-ty] what am i bitching at?
[ninth] what am i waiting for?
[of may] i can’t have it anymore…
[six-] feels like i’m sleeping awake.
[-ty] this is a final take.
[ninth] my life is passing me by.
[of may] the hardest thing is that i know why.

i don’t want to, yet i’m forced to
give it all the best of me.
i don’t need it, yet i’ll meet it
on the 69th of may.
i don’t want to, yet i’m forced to
give it all the best of me.
i don’t need it, yet i’ll meet it
on the 69th of may.

i don’t want to
i don’t need it
i don’t want to
i don’t need it
i don’t want to, yet i’m forced to
give it all the best of me.
i don’t need it, yet i’ll meet it
on the 69th of may.
Track Name: Through The Gehenna
eyes with styes see the idiot right here:
i’m too severe to stay and too entangled to go away.
fights and frights didn’t make a coward of me,
they’ve made an award of me, yet i can’t be stolen
away.
pain and shame: i exist through their bitterness,
i persist through the emptiness trying not to fade
away.
hate came late. ’twas the last thing i felt at the time
trampled but feeling so fine, striving to run away.

just let me go!
i guess
i’ve got nothing to loose, save the total abuse
i’ve got nothing to do, but fight my way through.

i’ll never return, i’ll never hesitate
dead or alive i’ll hold on ‘cuz that’s my fate.
up through the heavens or down through the gehenna
i’ll follow the sun, i’ll come to my father.

stare and laugh. you can never equal to me,
can never come over me, can never go away.
weep and cry. you can never get outta your shit,
crawl in your dirty pit, it fits you well and you're ok.
septic souls, you're not worth my shadow at night
drawn by the moonlight. in the name of god keep away!
you’re the chaos. and i am the beam of light
i am unstoppable so i’ll never fade away

just let me go!
i guess
i’ve got nothing to loose, save the total abuse
i’ve got nothing to do, but fight my way through.

i’ll never return, i’ll never hesitate
dead or alive i’ll hold on ‘cuz that’s my fate.
up through the heavens or down through the gehenna
i’ll follow the sun, i’ll come to my father.

i join the sunbeams,
i come in silence
to begin the endings,
to stop the violence…

just let me go!
i guess
i’ve got nothing to loose, save the total abuse
i’ve got nothing to do, but fight my way through.

i’ll never return, i’ll never hesitate
dead or alive i’ll hold on ‘cuz that’s my fate.
up through the heavens or down through the gehenna
i’ll follow the sun, i’ll come to my father.

i join the sunbeams,
i come in silence…
Track Name: It Comes From Nowhere
it comes from nowhere
and goes to somewhere
it’s taking me over,
it steals me, it kills me…

now it’s about 3 in the morning and i’m lying in bed,
it’s raining outside, and my pillow is wet…
you sleep here beside me but i feel like you’re gone,
i feel unprotected, i’m wrecked, i’m alone…
i fear, but i dare to stare into the dead of the night.
so taken with the sight, i tremble inside
as the tides of misery slowly arise
from the top to the bottom i become colder than ice…
it’s stronger than i could expect, (so it eats me)
it makes me lament and regret…
it’s bending and breaking me, but i can’t explain
what the hell’s goin' on and why i’m in so much pain…
the storm behind the window makes me know i can’t close
my eyes,
i know i can’t move anymore anyway ‘cuz i’m
anaesthetized…
and that’s when I feel so weak ‘cus every blast of wind
is a deadly blow.
that’s when i feel so bleak, that’s when you ask what’s
happening, but i don’t know.

here it comes, it comes again to take me,
it comes to pull me away, away, away

the morbid shadows fall and rise,
they lead their solemn dance, they hypnotize…
the drops of rain become the beat of pain,
i can plainly hear the rhythm from the window pane.
what have i got to do, where have i got to run?
what have i gotta get? can’t find your hand in the dark
so i’m on end…
the storm behind the window makes me know i can’t go
away,
i know i can’t move anymore anyhow ‘cuz i’m condemned
to stay…

it comes from nowhere
and goes to somewhere
it’s taking me over,
it steals me, it kills me…

i’m tired and tethered, i’m tattered and torn,
so helpless and weak like i’m a newborn…
the air’s gettin’ thin with every breath that i take.
for god’s sake! it can’t be true, cuz i’m awake.
gimme the truth i wanna know everything and take the
deal!
sure i will! nowhere to run, so i’ve got to lay still.
i wish you could wake up and put me together,
i wish you could stop it forever and ever…
but i know there’s nothing to keep it away,
i feel it creeping around each night and every day…
it’s like i’ll never be quite, it’s like i’ll always be
mad,
it’s like i’ve lost something vital and special inside.
where does it come from? what is it all for?
it’s right in my core. i’m infected and i know i can’t
be cured anymore…
'tis now that I feel so weak ‘cus every blast of wind is
a deadly blow.
that’s when i feel so bleak, that’s when you ask what’s
happening, but i don’t know.

it comes from nowhere
and goes to somewhere
it’s taking me over,
it steals me, it kills me…

here it comes, it comes again to take me,
it comes to pull me away, away, away

it comes from nowhere
and goes to somewhere
it’s taking me over,
it steals me, it kills me…
it comes from nowhere
and goes to somewhere
it’s taking me over,
it steals me, it kills me…
the storm behind the window makes me know i can’t close
my eyes,
i know i can’t move anymore anyway ‘cuz i’m
anaesthetized…
and that’s when a feel so weak ‘cus every blast of wind
is a deadly blow.
that’s when i feel so bleak, that’s when you ask what’s
happening, but i don’t know.
what have i got to do, where have i got to run?
what have i gotta get? can’t find your hand in the dark
so i’m on end…
the storm behind the window makes me know i can’t go
away,
i know i can’t move anymore anyhow ‘cuz i’m condemned
to stay…
it comes from nowhere
and goes to somewhere
it’s taking me over,
it steals me, it kills me…
Track Name: Deserve
wanna die? wanna live?
wanna take? wanna give?
wanna hate? wanna love?
wanna cry? wanna laugh?
wanna plague? wanna heal?
wanna strive? wanna stay still?
wanna lie? wanna stand?
wanna be at my hand?
is it anything more that you want?
is it anything you’re ready to pay for? or lose what
you’ve got?
is it something special you wanna see,
is it a new pleasure you’re looking for in me?

wanna lose? wanna win?
wanna get under my skin?
wanna ache? wanna shake?
wanna build? wanna break?
wanna bend me to mend me?
wanna tend me to blend me?
wanna stay? wanna leave?
wanna choke? wanna breathe?
it is too much for you, and too expensive for me:
there’s no wonder it couldn’t happen, cuz it just
couldn’t be
gimme a single reason to show you my flaws,
gimme a need, a chance, a motive and i’ll show you my
claws.

deserve my every glance,
stay hungry, crave me each and every minute of your
life,
deserve! deserve!

you’re the freak, and i’m the nature,
you will fade sooner or later
after you’ll have nothing more to serve.

you’ve never lived, but now it’s over:
you’ll lose your wit until you’re sober.
stay just happy with what you deserve.

you’re blind… and as a matter of fact
you’re so perverted in your mind you cannot realize
that.
time after time you’re in conniption cuz the bottom
line
is an egoistic power struggle for a “having a good
time”.
shallow and hollow, you are probably dead,
you’re wasting your time just to get nothing instead.
and in the end there is a thing that you really fear:
it dreams with you, it lives with you, it’s mutually
near.

it sleeps with the shadows of your deepest desires,
it slips away, returns again and then it expires.
it hangs about when you are high, yet out of your
reach,
remains untouchable, but touching, like a psychosomatic
itch.
and you can’t reshape it or take it:
it’s like a bug in your main bus that keeps you
helpless and naked.
that’s you in your emptiness, and you know it’s real,
because the man inside is you, and you’re a great big
nil.

you’ll never ever deserve my glance.
stay hungry, crave me each and every minute of your
life,
keep away!

you’re the freak, and i’m the nature,
you will fade sooner or later
after you’ll have nothing more to serve.

you’ve never lived, but now it’s over:
you’ll lose your wit until you’re sober,
stay just happy with what you deserve.

(you’ll never ever deserve)
(keep away)
(you’ll never ever deserve)
(keep away)
(you’ll never ever deserve)
(keep away)
keep away!

save your bends (you’ll never ever deserve)
for one who’ll
multiply by you.
(keep away)

anyway (you’ll never ever deserve)
a nil times tally’s nil, ‘n’ that’s what you can’t
debate.
this is what i can never to be obeyed.

you’re the freak, and i’m the nature,
you will fade sooner or later
after you’ll have nothing more to serve.
(‘n’ that’s what you can’t debate).

you’ve never lived, but now it’s over:
you’ll lose your wit until you’re sober,
stay just happy with what you deserve.
(a nil times tally is a great big nil)
a great big nil
Track Name: Free
my eyes… burst and bleed with ethereal sincerity
someone lit ’em up and made them burn with painful
activity.
my skin… was covered with scars so that it could hold
the fire in me
sometimes it grew so thin i couldn’t hold back all my
negativity…

my blood… is made of the dark and deep of a midnight
summer sky
enriched by every star that dropped a tear when it came
passing by…
my heart… is made of something i can never figure
out:
no human can steal it, no human can get it, it can’t be
caught, it can’t be bound.

i am free! i belong to no-one cuz my only husband is
the hot sun.
i am free! i belong to nowhere cuz my only true wife is
the silky moon.

my way… always pure and straight as a sunbeam can be
hot and hard, but always here, like nature’s might and
purity.
my lips… are made to kiss the weary dusk and sleepy
dawn,
to touch the wind and make it move over and over, and
on and on.

my hair… each one is made to capture and hold a man’s
destiny,
each curl and twist is life and death ‘n’ god’s
providence eventually.
my soul… the quintessence of love and its eternity
no demon can steal it, no demon can get it, enslave it
or kill it mentally!

i am free till the end of time…
cuz i serve god and i’m one of his royal messengers. x2

i am free! i belong to no-one cuz my only husband is
the hot sun.
i am free! i belong to nowhere cuz my only true wife is
the silky moon.

i face the bright sun with open eyes!
i face the shiny moon with a faithful and pure heart!
x4

i am free! i belong to no-one cuz my only husband is
the hot sun.
i am free! i belong to nowhere cuz my only true wife is
the silky moon.
i am free! my husband is the bright sun and i love him
with all my heart
his the one and only till the end of time.
i am free! my wife is the shiny moon and i love her
with all my heart
she’s the one and only till the end of time.

i’ll keep away the demons, i’ll find them in the dark
i’ll kill all the demons, i’ll fight them in the
dark…
Track Name: In The Dark ['16 Deluxe bonus track]
Come lay down with me [repeatedly and reversed sometimes]
In the dark...
Demons in the dark...
My demons in the dark...
Track Name: Dark Dancer ['16 Deluxe bonus track]
I enter the dark, and it covers me,
I walk in the dark, and it shelters me,
I talk to the dark with sincerity,
I dance in the dark and then I can see
The devious destiny, the strong and the weak,
The gloaming struggle of heat, the dying pulse of the bleak.
I trace every soul in the dark,
I can read every soul when I dance in the dark.

I lie in the dark, and it's soothing to me,
I crawl in the dark, and it's stripping me,
I glow in the dark and moan lustfully,
I sin in the dark, and then I can be
The devious destiny for the strong and the weak,
The gloaming quiver of heat, a lusty pulse for a lick...
I can attract every man 'cuz I'm dark,
I can get every soul when I dance in the dark.

Come dance with me!

I smile in the dark, and it echoes to me,
I wade through the dark, and it dances with me,
I play with the dark, and it strengthens me,
I melt in the dark, and then I can see
The darkness is palpable and audible too
Like me, like anything else, like every small bit of you...
I can scent, I can touch, I can hear, I can know
What's above, what is here, what's below.

I fuck in the dark as it breathes with me,
I smile in the dark as it flows with me,
I float in the dark as you chase for me,
I suck in the dark, and when you cum in me
I'm alive when you bleed and when you fade I revive,
Your secret desires always bring me to life...
I've got the power to give love and take it,
I've got the juice to go mad when the dark leaves me naked.

Come dance with me!

Come dance with me!
Move!
Come dance with me!
Move!

Call me when you're burning down,
Call me between dusk and dawn.
Track Name: Snow ['13 remake bonus track]
say what? say what? say what? say what?
you dunno when i’ll fade out and turn into something
blanc,
i dunno when you’ll collapse and become so deadly black

you know when it’s time to wrap me,
you know when it’s time to make me feel like a nowhere
queen,
you know when it’s time to trap me…
i’ll never ever guess when you’ll come again
and spread yourself under my tired feet.

i know when it’s time to touch you,
i know when it’s time to fall into your silent arms,
i dunno the time you’ll come
to mess up again with my bitter tears, with my deepest
fears…
don’t leave me this time…

i’ve overcome my jealousy,
i’ve killed my malevolence today…
the taste so bitter, the feeling sweet
cuz no-one can ever walk my way…

i knew that you’ll come and obey
i knew that you’ll come and be adored by the nowhere
queen,
i know when it’s time to trap you…
you’ll never ever guess, but return again.
i’ll give me to you but you’ll beg for more…

you dunno when i’ll grow shallow,
you dunno when i’ll fade out and turn into something
blanc…
but i’ll try my best to find
out the bitter point when the passion dies, when it
blows our minds…
and then i’ll be gone…

i’ve overcome my jealousy,
i’ve killed my malevolence today…
the taste so bitter, the feeling sweet
cuz no-one can ever walk my way…

the snowflakes will dance around us
just like they did a thousand years
or a billion years ago.
and every time they touch us
infinity will be close at hand
and everything else won't be worth anything…

i’ve overcome my jealousy,
i’ve killed my malevolence today…
the taste so bitter, the feeling sweet
cuz no-one can ever walk my way…

let the snowflakes fall from the heavens
let them glimmer like our every glance,
let them glow like our hearts in their infinite
dance…

say what? (i tell you what)
you dunno when i’ll fade out and turn into something
blanc,
i dunno when you’ll collapse and become so deadly
black.
Track Name: Soarcry ['13 remake demo]
You said… I am too special to you
You said it like I was a kinda model that wouldn’t fit
you,
And now you really dunno what to do…
Me too…
You said I’m pretty and cute,
But yet I feel that I don’t ever suit
You well enough…
You’re afraid and unaware of what you’re facing…
You never thought you might
(what a fright)
and now you don’t think you’re able to
‘cause I’m amazing…

To me it’s a kinda plague,
It feels like I dream,
But all of a sudden I know I’m awake…
It hurts, it burns, and it turns me upside down,
And then my heart unfurls
As I cry with no sound.
I still control my shakes
But every minute it takes
Is a torture to me…
You talk but every time you speak
I gotta feeling you lie to me,
So my heart gets bleak
Every time… every time…

I’d buried myself inside
And faced everything with eyes open wide,
Yet it took too much to reach the balance.
I tried
Though too f**ked up with lie,
Though conditioned to die
I got better in my head
And much more cynical in bed.
I’ve lost all my believes and choked all my dreams
‘cause in truth nothing is really what it seems.
I belied myself so that I could hold on
Now take a one good look at what you’ve done to me!
Come on!

Now I can fly… like I’m a soar cry,
You made me feel this way…
Now I can fly… like I’m a soar cry,
Sometimes you kill me, but I can’t die…
Now I can fly… like I’m a soar cry,
You made me feel this way…
Now I can fly… like I’m a soar cry,
Sometimes you kill me, but I can’t die…

Now I’ve gotta fly… like I’m a soar cry,
You made me feel this way…
Now I’ve gotta fly… like I’m a soar cry,
Sometimes you kill me, but I can’t die…
Now I’ve gotta fly… like I’m a soar cry,
You made me feel this way…
Now I’ve gotta fly… like I’m a soar cry,
Sometimes you kill me, but you know I can’t die…

You never met anyone like me,
There’s no wonder you didn’t ‘cause I’m the one
eternally
You dunno what to expect,
You dunno what you could get
If only you wanted to…
You’re afraid to know whom you met.
God gave me you, god gave you me,
But you’re a human so you can’t take it easily,
And I’m unsure of what I might be:
An angel for you, a temptation, but anyway not a human
being…

Do you wanna take my life?
I just wanna know what for I strive…
For you, for me, for us, for god’s sake?
You taste and smell like my destiny and it makes my
heart ache.
You ask me why I’m here by your side,
Why I confide…
But anyhow I can’t explain…
The one and only thing I know it is all right…
It’s all right… right as the moon and stars above so
bright…

(now listen)

But you don’t believe me,
You’re afraid to believe me.
If you’re so scared why don’t you just leave me?
It’s all because you know I’m your only chance…
Nobody wants another failed romance.
But there’ll be none at all
If we’ll be deaf to the call
Of something deep inside us, aware of a fall
We often give up. We give up… that’s why
We stay alone and hear the bitter soar cry…

You said… I am too special to you
And now you really dunno what to do…
Me too…
Now you made me fly like I’m a soarcry.
Don’t let me die away like I’m a soarcry.
Now take a one good look at what you’ve done to me
And what I’ve done to you.
Or maybe that’s what should happen to me
And to you…
We’re given to each other,
So we deserve each other.